Happy Belated St. Valentine's Day! Hope you enjoyed the day of love with your family/friends/pet/gf/bf/crush. Some people hate Valentine's Day with a bitter passion. Others flit around in a state of semi-feverish glow. I take the moderate approach: I am loved, and I know it, and thus I will celebrate. I may not have a significant other, but love is still mine.
I have to confess to getting a little teary eyed at one point, though. I had just finished getting dressed in a cute outfit, completed the finishing touches on my make up, and was prepared to leave with friends when I suddenly thought...why doesn't anyone want me? I'm smart, I'm cute, I'm stylish. I don't have any glaring personality defects. Am I not enough? Must I be perpetually single? (And, in sudden rage at my state...Why do all these nasty, rude brats get boyfriends?! Ugh, but then again, I wouldn't want to date the trolls they are involved with)
God was silent.
I got a response to my plea a day later, when reading Mother Teresa's No Greater Love: "I must not attempt to control God's action; I must not count the stages in the journey He would have me make. I must not desire a clear perception of my advance upon the road, must not know precisely where I am upon the way of holiness."
So, I don't know why I am single, but I know the answer is NOT that I am not enough. God has a plan. I just have to trust in Him completely and see where He takes me.
Trust God because he will guide you to love one day , and you will be so loved that you would wish you were single ;) !
ReplyDeleteFinding our significant other takes time , I like the saying "If you go searching for love , then it's not love at all" love finds you , not the other way round .
I was unaware when I was with my First Love that he would end up being my boyfriend for near four years . It came out of the blue , I was not searching for love nor had I never been in love .
But now that I had a taste of love and rejection by the same man , I discovered bitterness and I now find myself not so much as searching for love , but I get preoccupied when a guy asks me to the cinema .
I hate feeling like I have to find my other half in order to be whole , but to be honest with you , that's how I feel . So I find myself going on dates with guys not knowing if they have a crush on me or not , this is the part I hate , because the beginning of any relationship is just the fabricated side of us and them , it’s what we want each other to see , to know whether the relationship will be successful well . . . that takes time .
So I’d say don’t worry about falling in love just yet , take your time and enjoy your beauty around loved family and friends .
What is truly heart-wrenching are those who tell God to take a hike and try, keyword: try, to lay waste to God's careful and intricate plans for people's lives.
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